Happiness

Today I had a wonderful afternoon shopping (which I will write a post for soon) and everything was great until I picked up my brothers from the bus and went home. We walked in to discover our dog, Rita, had thrown up. Now I absolutely HATE everything to do with vomiting, to the point where I have had a lot of anxiety about it, so this was not ideal. So I left the room and went upstairs to take my mind off it. I had to ask my nine year old brother to try and clean the vomit up a little and take her for a walk. She seemed fine after that so we think it was probably some freak thing. Anyway this was just the start to a worse second half of the afternoon. Not long after that I had to get back in the car and go back to school to pick up my other brother from track practice. By now, because it rained today, I have a headache. So by the time we get back home, I'm pretty miserable. I lay down for a little while, take an advil, but it doesn't help much. When my mom gets home I decide to make dinner. I make (home made) chicken noodle soup because my mom has been asking me to make it the past few days. While I'm making it, my head still hurts and all the bad things that have happened the past two hours just start building up inside. I'm angry and I think about all the I'd like to yell about. But then, I think about it. I don't have to be angry. I don't have to be annoyed, anxious, sad, or mad about everything that happened. I can just let it go. On that note, to cheer myself up, I start singing "Do You Wanna Build a Snowman?". Now, this may sound cliche or dumb but it really worked. My brothers came in the kitchen and we put on the real music from my phone and sang along to the whole Frozen sound track. By the time we sit down to eat, I'm happy instead of angry and I don't mind my headache so much. Even now, I don't feel 100% but I take heart in knowing that I did this. I chose to be happy, I could have let myself be mad but I changed how I was feeling and had a much better evening for it.

Whenever I do something along these lines, I want to reflect on it afterward and remember how good it felt for next time. I like knowing that I controlled my feelings and happiness. It makes me feel good about myself to know that I can do this.